My problem was the crush I had on Jack. He was so cute! He made me shy. And without speaking too much to me. Pretty much Sammy was the one to introduce me to the guys and I talked to all of them pretty well except for Jack. I would just be torturing myself. I told him to pick me up in an hour so I took my sweet time to look as good as possible for Jack. So here I was, picking out something nice and casual enough to spend the evening with the guys.
I ended up wearing my typical jeans and plain tank top with a cardigan over it with my white Chuck Taylors. When I finished getting ready I called up Sam to pick me up and within minutes he was outside of my apartment. I grabbed my bag and walked out to see his car and climbed in.
Throughout the car ride we spoke of out days and how life was going and that typical stuff. We arrived at his place soon. The guys were playing Fifa when we arrived so they hardly payed any attention to my arrival.
When my eyes landed on Jack, I felt my heart begin to pound immensely and when he gave me a small smile with a wave I felt the stupid butterflies in my tummy erupt. I wanted so badly just to kiss him and hold on to him and never let go, but I was too shy. I sat on the sofa next to Sam as they continued playing. Within a couple of minutes their Fifa session had ended and my least anticipated time of day had arrived.
It was Nate who first introduced the weed and obviously, the rest of the guys agreed. So as soon as they started burning up the plant, I excused myself and went out to their backyard. I sat outside for a few moments taking in the cool night air and making plans for the next day, when suddenly the door opened and shut and somebody sat right next to me. I assumed it was Sam because he was the closest to me but I was surprised to see Johnson who had sat right next to me.
Again, my heart began to pound rapidly in my chest. He just smiled at me in response. He nodded and looked away from me. Kind of when you have those awkward moments and you have the urge to look away in an attempt to make the situation less awkward. He stared at the ground for a few seconds and so did I. We were once again engulfed in a complete silence until Jack took a sudden sharp breath. Finally, he looked me straight in the eyes and I felt myself begin to get extremely nervous.
I like you and I—I want you to be mine. You wanna know something? I like you too. And just like you, I was always too shy to let you know—or to even tell you!
But I do… And I would love more than anything to be yours. When I nodded at him, I was shocked, to say the least, at what I did. I started to lean in to kiss him. Maybe it was a sudden surge if confidence but when our lips finally touched, it felt incredible!
Within a few seconds his lips were moving in sync with mine in a slow, sweet motion, making the experience so much better. I never wanted to pull away. His lips were so sweet. But eventually he did and I had no choice.